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From Beyond

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How do you partake in a subtle diss?

Do you openly state who you’re targeting

or do you keep it vague and leave them oblivious?

After all, when everyone else can assume…

it’s them who look like the idiots.

If the shoe fits, they say.

I think I’ve got a whole shop,

and people buy these shoes every day.

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Blood is thicker than water.

What a narrative.

Blood is nothing but biology,

and I’d personally rather drown 

than take the time to explain the psychology.

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I get a penny from beyond all the time.

I believe it’s from one person,

reminding me that I’ll be fine.

He was blood.

What a time that was.

When someone maintains the bond 

and offers up support like your favorite song.

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He’s the only tattoo I have on my body.

His words, “Wish you were here” 

speak so loudly.

If only you knew the heartbreak

of knowing most of your “blood” only comes from the beyond.

A spirit who refills my spirit on a daily basis.

I know you look down with heavy disappointment,

I mean… let’s face it.

You mastered the energy to communicate 

while the living can’t even master 

human decency. 

Maybe that’s on me.

Thinking family means family.

That you show up, 

no matter the conflict.

That you show up,

no matter the distance.

That you show up,

period. 

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I have another spirit looking down on me

who I believe would disapprove.

She’s finally succeeding in life,

why aren’t you all the first to stand in line?

Clap your hands,

a round of applause,

for the girl we all thought was a lost cause.

She’s found joy,

she’s found security,

she’s found love;

and she’s had babies.

What a joyous celebration,

and yet you all are lacking dedication.

If she was here, 

I know this wouldn’t be allowed.

If she was here,

I know she’d be speaking out loud.

–

It’s alright.

It’s okay.

Those that truly matter 

will show up for my special day.

–

Hello to the living,

and hello to the beyond.

My love extends to you

if you choose to cheer me on.

The Water

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I’d like to take a second and talk about my current situation. Most people have wondered why I stopped writing/releasing poems. Well, I found out I was pregnant with my miracle baby, back in August of 2021. My son, Bear, will be in my hands come this April (2022). It’s been a tough road to navigate, pregnancy wise, as I am venturing on this journey alone. I had to stop writing for a while, and truly focus on my mental well-being, for the sake of my child. I’m just now starting to write again, and it’s a beautiful thing. I’m proud of myself for the choices I’ve made, and the ones I will continue to make. Thank you to the strangers who have continued to send me notifications of likes on old poems. Each one is a pick-me-up like no other. I am forever grateful to my readers, my supporters. 

This poem was written in under fifteen minutes tonight. The first four lines came to me, in a melody, before I took a shower the other day. I sent a voice recording to my sister, who graciously told me that the tune was now stuck in her head. I also sent her this poem as soon as I finished it tonight. She’s always read my work and responded, but never with a FaceTime call. She said she wanted me to see her face, because that’s how much she loved it. She fully understood the message in this poem, and I think as a writer, that’s all we could really ask for. I mentioned how long it took me to write this, because it’s a reminder to myself that poetry is second nature to me. It’s my home and my escape… all in one. I hate that I had to walk away for a while, but I think my return is even more powerful and meaningful than before.

Cheers to my own timeline. Cheers to my writing.

Most importantly, cheers to all of you.

Enjoy.

I came to terms with the water,

and how you left me to drown.

I came to terms with the water,

‘cause I swam myself around.

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I watched you leave on your boat.

And sail away with my love and all my hope.

Incomplete, yet set free.

How’d I let you get this hold on me.

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I came to terms with the water,

and the current that you formed.

I came to terms with the water,

‘cause I was all I needed, and more.

______

I’ll never forget the water’s pull,

as it tried to suck me under.

I’ll never forget your smile,

your pure amusement, or your wonder.

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I came to terms with the water,

and the sharks swimming at my side.

I came to terms with the water,

‘cause in the end, it wasn’t fear that kept me alive.

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They waited just like you, 

for a drop of blood or two.

I never once gave in,

and let you all stay in suspense.

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I came to terms with the water,

and how I made it my friend.

I came to terms with the water,

as I’m bound to swim in it again.