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Walk Away

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Pregnancy insomnia? Found a solution.

Just like the last poem, the first four lines came to me in a soft ballad-like tune. I think my baby is bringing out the musical side in me lately! Unlike the last poem, however, I sang every word while I wrote this one. It is intended to be a song, and a comforting one at that. I hope you enjoy this beautiful, and incredibly relatable, piece.

Cheers!

Baby, walk away with me.

It’ll be the last thing we do together.

Baby, walk away with me.

Promise it’ll all get better.

___

I’m just tired of the fights,

all the sleepless nights,

questioning who’s right,

and those painful cries.

___

Once, you were my best friend.

Thought I’d be your partner ’till the end.

Our love was something others couldn’t comprehend.

And when we fell, I rose to defend.

___

Baby, walk away with me.

It’ll be the last thing we do together.

Baby, walk away with me.

Promise we’ll both be better.

___

I’m just tired of the lies,

and all the empty whys,

questioning our tries,

and losing what was mine.

___

Once, we shared the best laughs.

We could be ourselves; no masks.

Our love was so strong, thought for sure that it would last.

And when I sank, you were my life raft.

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Baby, walk away with me.

It’ll be the last thing we do together.

Baby, walk away with me.

Promise you’ll find another.

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Our time has come for goodbye.

I’m scared if we wait any longer,

we’ll leave hating one another.

Let’s walk away out of love.

Let’s walk away with our trust.

Let’s walk away… it’s a must.

___

Baby, walk away with me.

Let me give you one last kiss before I leave.

Baby, walk away with me.

We’ll be better for this…

For this…

I believe.

The Water

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I’d like to take a second and talk about my current situation. Most people have wondered why I stopped writing/releasing poems. Well, I found out I was pregnant with my miracle baby, back in August of 2021. My son, Bear, will be in my hands come this April (2022). It’s been a tough road to navigate, pregnancy wise, as I am venturing on this journey alone. I had to stop writing for a while, and truly focus on my mental well-being, for the sake of my child. I’m just now starting to write again, and it’s a beautiful thing. I’m proud of myself for the choices I’ve made, and the ones I will continue to make. Thank you to the strangers who have continued to send me notifications of likes on old poems. Each one is a pick-me-up like no other. I am forever grateful to my readers, my supporters. 

This poem was written in under fifteen minutes tonight. The first four lines came to me, in a melody, before I took a shower the other day. I sent a voice recording to my sister, who graciously told me that the tune was now stuck in her head. I also sent her this poem as soon as I finished it tonight. She’s always read my work and responded, but never with a FaceTime call. She said she wanted me to see her face, because that’s how much she loved it. She fully understood the message in this poem, and I think as a writer, that’s all we could really ask for. I mentioned how long it took me to write this, because it’s a reminder to myself that poetry is second nature to me. It’s my home and my escape… all in one. I hate that I had to walk away for a while, but I think my return is even more powerful and meaningful than before.

Cheers to my own timeline. Cheers to my writing.

Most importantly, cheers to all of you.

Enjoy.

I came to terms with the water,

and how you left me to drown.

I came to terms with the water,

‘cause I swam myself around.

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I watched you leave on your boat.

And sail away with my love and all my hope.

Incomplete, yet set free.

How’d I let you get this hold on me.

______

I came to terms with the water,

and the current that you formed.

I came to terms with the water,

‘cause I was all I needed, and more.

______

I’ll never forget the water’s pull,

as it tried to suck me under.

I’ll never forget your smile,

your pure amusement, or your wonder.

______

I came to terms with the water,

and the sharks swimming at my side.

I came to terms with the water,

‘cause in the end, it wasn’t fear that kept me alive.

______

They waited just like you, 

for a drop of blood or two.

I never once gave in,

and let you all stay in suspense.

______

I came to terms with the water,

and how I made it my friend.

I came to terms with the water,

as I’m bound to swim in it again.

Hope You Have a Day

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I feel so misrepresented.

False facts, they’re never ending.

You’ve only scratched my surface;

now you think you’re perfect?

Know me? You know “of” not “because.”

And that right there was the death of us.

See you soon? No, see you never.

You dumbed me down, surprise bitch, I’m clever.

All I wanted was for you to ask, to listen…

instead you chose to be silent, distant.

What’s going on in your brain?

Thinking about it just makes me more drained.

Get lost, not found.

I’m better off when you’re not around.

Being next to you now seems daunting.

Your smirk and harsh eyes are forever haunting.

I just hope you can respect my space.

And by space, I mean to stay away.

The 23rd

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You were a beautiful distraction. 

One filled with many misleading interactions. 

I wish I could, as you so graciously state it, say less.

However that’s just not how I am. Perhaps, for the best.

To you, there’s dating and a dating phase.

Please explain, as I thought they were the same.

Your chivalry was strong, and your words were sweet.

Moving fast, you swept me off my feet.

You had me by your smile, and by your eyes.

Maybe I’m mistaken, but I thought I also had you with mine.

I changed my rules for you, nearly every expectation. 

Imagine my surprise when you repaid me with hesitation. 

You say it’s nice to be important, and important to be nice.

With how you’ve been lately, maybe you should repeat that last line, twice.

All I need from a man is respect and attention.

If that’s more than you can offer, perhaps you need some self reflection.

Here I am remembering Marley, as I channel my inner Swift.

No woman, no cry, as I continue to write down my relationship bullshit. 

Penny for your thoughts, but a dollar for mine. 

Yes, it’s your loss. Better luck next time. 

Shot of Serotonin

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I saw you, standing tall behind the bar.

Lady after lady leaned over the counter.

All of them as eager as I was to have a drink…

a drink, made by you.

I couldn’t seem to wedge myself into the line.

I tried, like a fool, to get you to notice me.

In no way was I as striking or assertive as them.

So, I accepted my loss in the back of the room.

There I was, standing alone, with a water in my hand.

Never had I felt so out of place.

Men came my way, and yet, I turned them all away.

It seemed you’d had as many empty conversations as I had.

There we were, both drowning in bottles of false flattery.

As the night came to a close, and all the people began to leave,

I finally caught you glance over at me.

That was my cue, and it was time for me to go.

As I searched for my keys in the bottom of my purse,

I saw you wave hello.

Instinctually, I tilted my head down and blushed.

As I made my way to the door, I heard your voice.

A tone mixed with masculinity and suaveness.

You yelled for me to wait, and that I did.

Before I knew it, you stood before me.

You asked for my name and how I was doing.

There I was, completely sober, yet getting tipsy.

It may have taken until the end of the night, but you still managed to pour me a drink.

A shot of serotonin, exactly what I’d need.

Twin Flame

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From the moment we met, we could feel the pull.

An uncontrollable magnet, bound to make our hearts full.

Within minutes we were kissing,

having never known what our hearts were missing.

We get lost in one another’s eyes.

As if it were our souls’ way of saying hello and goodbye.

We fell so quickly, so intensely.

Never taking a moment to catch our breath.

The more I saw you, the more I saw my reflection.

Every mistake, every trauma, every imperfection.

I became nervous and afraid,

with no one but myself to blame.

Facing your demons is never easy,

but together we could find their deeper meanings.

Embark on a journey of self discovery.

Know there’s always a safehaven in our friendship when things get tough.

I aspire to be better, as do you.

I aspire to be loved, as do you.

I aspire to be healed, as do you.

We don’t need to be together to admit that’s the truth.

As we watch each other leave, we promise to support.

I’ll gladly stand in your corner, never ever forced.

For what it’s worth, I wish you well on your path.

You’ll always have a home with me; no strings attached.

Aura

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If I had to name your colors,

I’d go with sage, navy, and maroon.

Peaceful, moving, and loving,

Exactly how I’d describe you.

Sage, used to cleanse and restore positivity.

With you, I speak freely of my traumas,

without judgment; without hate.

I’m coming clean, and you make it all sound better.

If only you burned with me forever.

Navy, representing the darkest of oceans.

The vastness of the unknown frightens most,

but those who matter, know the beauty underneath.

Like the waves, you need motion and freedom.

If only you’d let me sail on your waters.

Maroon, for your overworking heart.

Consistently giving, awaiting reciprocation.

I hope you know, the right one will come and take the pain away.

They’ll remind you how it feels to be safe and loved.

If only you realized that they were me.

If I had to name your colors,

I’d go with sage, navy, and maroon. 

Peaceful, moving, and loving.

I wouldn’t change a thing.

Zirconia

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This poem completes a challenge I started, nearly four years ago: title each blog entry with every letter of the alphabet, in sequential order (minus my first blog post, Greetings, which remains the only blog with that letter.) The majority of my work was written in the past year. For the first few years of this blog, I lost myself and my passion for writing. Once I left the relationship I was in, my creativity and desire to write came rushing back to me, like a bicycle tucked away in my garage. Although this poem isn’t about that relationship in particular, the premise is somewhat the same. I am grateful for every person who has taught me a lesson over the years. I never knew why my heartache was deserved, or what it was good for, until I started writing my book, 628: A Memoir. Thank you to my readers, whose comments have motivated me to continue. Now, I am ready to take on a new challenge.

Enjoy twenty-six rhyming lines in celebration of the twenty-sixth letter.

Cheers,

Lo.

He had just left me; broke my heart amongst other things.
Vulnerable and a fool, I thought I’d lost my king.
Then came a knight, armed for battle; his sword took a swing.
He vowed to protect me, and placed my heart in a sling.
I was instantly enamored, to him, I would cling.
A passionate love affair; unaware it’s a fling.
I saw forever with him; now I had the real thing.
In we rode, on our horse of mania, growing wings.
I wanted his commitment, in the shape of a ring.
He shared in my delusions, adrenaline rising.
Then, soon after, he asked my dad and we were thriving.
Well, after some time, our illusion started dying.
I realized I didn’t belong, but I was trying.
My knight turned into a commoner, and was lying.
I locked myself in my castle, and dreamt of flying.
Self medicated sorrow had my mind unwinding.
Doubt, regret, and paranoia altered my timing.
Where did my knight go? Was he lost? Could he find me?
My words meant nothing; I may as well have been miming.
His love would later turn to lust, and it felt grimy.
I felt embarrassed, yet compelled to leave. God, why me?
His actions were inexcusable, and set me free.
Like Rapunzel, I craved a new opportunity.
I know I did wrong too, but we burned in unity.
Something once beautiful, tarnished for you, and for me.
My finger should have bore cubic zirconia bling.

Xerox

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I wrote down what happened.

Then, I set it to the side and forgot it.

Lately, I’ve been immersed in my past…

which led me back to this note.

I’d write it here, but the ink is smudged.

Every word… now blurred together.

I remember who it was about, but can’t seem to gather the details.

What’d you do to me?

I left to confront you; the note tucked away in my pocket.

I could see it on your face.

You knew why I was there.

As you raised your hand to greet me, I noticed the black on the side of your palm.

Why’d you do this to me?

There’s fear behind your smile.

Perhaps if not towards me, towards yourself.

You knew that you’d simply just delay me.

After some time, I’d no longer need this note to remember.

You should’ve burned it when you had the chance.

Instead, you chose to leave a clue…

one that led me back to you.

Was it to inflict pain on a wound I’d believed was closed? 

Maybe now I’ll receive the answers.

Only time shall tell your true intentions.

And when the truth escapes your mouth,

I’ll, once more, write it down.

Only this time, I’ll be sure to make a copy.

White Light

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Haven’t written a song for all of you in quite some time. Lately, I’ve been addicted to the spoken word style type of poetry.

Enjoy my latest *explicit* creation: White Light.

WHITE LIGHT 

V1: 

What a fucking massacre.

Watching blood drip off of her.

I know she’s in pain,

and I’m the one to blame.

V2: 

What a fucking massacre.

Her heart is torn in two.

I know there’s not much time,

until I watch her turn blue.

Chorus: 

What a fucking disaster.

This wasn’t supposed to happen.

Is sorry even enough?

I know her battle was tough.

But, I stayed silent,

‘cause I liked it.

Now, there’s no turning back.

I killed for the last laugh.

Bridge: 

Do I sound cruel to you?

She cut me too.

Mutual destruction;

we put on quite the production.

Two people who just wanted out…

But, I grew impatient,

and look what’s happened now. 

*Chorus* 

V3: 

What a fucking massacre.

A big bloody mess.

Hear both sides, then tell me

if it was an accident.

*Chorus*

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